urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s sar* sar* 2006-03-09T12:51:38Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:58092 2006-03-09T12:51:38Z 2006-03-09T12:51:38Z i tend to just watch movies all the time. wow. livejournal. i forgot about you.<br /><br />it's 7:41 am. i have been up since 4:30 WOO HOO FEVER!....i hope i can bring it down and kick it in the ass today...i just want to be better...i feel like when people are sick they are given the right to complain about it. just because they can. i just dont like feeling agitated and frustrated and unmotivated. i tried yesterday to dress myself up a bit more and actually look "put together"...alas, i still felt like shit and it didnt make me any better. i give myself props for trying.<br /><br />i went to Ryerson Dance's "Choreographic Works" last night. It was beautiful. I love theatre. It was amazing to see my friends showcase their talent and see the pieces they had choreographed themself. my friend ryan=unbelievable. His piece was fantastic.i was blown away. <br /><br />i have come to realize i am not all that talented. i try and think about the things i can produce...and nothing comes to mind. so what am i doing? i am in a program that i love but i cant seem to make anything good come out of it. there is so much talent in everyone around me, and it makes me sad, because i've lost mine..or maybe i never even had it...who knows...because i really dont think talking and being social is considered talent. unless you can find me a way to make that successful or show that off then i may reconsider.then again this feeling may be from the fact that i am sick and my head is clouded with my cold. yuck.<br /><br />this past weekend was most amazing.METRO JAM took place. my favourite weekend of all time. bmx competitions and amazing people. we partied, we laughed, we chilled out, we watched riding. it made me so happy to see some good riding. its been a while. since the summer actually. i am happy for nice weather. cruising i shall go! woot!<br /><br />thats all for now. back to movies and tea and blankies and round nest chairs.sigh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:57784 2006-01-20T04:01:09Z 2006-01-20T04:01:09Z i like honesty. <br /><br />from the beginning. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:57389 2006-01-04T05:42:50Z 2006-01-04T05:42:50Z i hate this time of year..<br />i dont like it because i can feel myself getting down, and it always happens...<br />i am going to try and beat it though, and try and stay happy and alive..<br />boo to dark winter months.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:57112 2005-12-19T05:00:49Z 2005-12-19T05:00:49Z i had a fantastic weekend...being around live music is the best feeling in the world. (when it's good..)<br /><br />today i was happy to see my mom, i got really excited when i talked to her last night and then today we shopped with ms.janes (miss you already...sigh*) and had an awesome drive home, and watched movies (love actually and frost the snowman)..it felt so good to be cozy with mom...and my sisters :)<br /><br />my weekend was full of Stars and Bedouin Soundclash, i also enjoyed the sounds of matt costa...and was not impressed with the junction. meh, c'est la vie..haha<br /><br />i worked doing our hoodwinked promotions, it was hilarity all around. oh grandma costume with saggy boobs. &lt;3<br /><br />so i will be home for about 2 weeks...and it seems to be shaping up nicely..filled with movies and friends and SHOPPING and christmas and love. awe....tender.<br /><br />and now i am off to watch desperate housewives. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:56977 2005-12-15T03:11:02Z 2005-12-15T03:11:02Z not music, movie-newsies you are all getting livejournal hoodies!<br /><br />love<br />me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:56585 2005-12-06T01:25:13Z 2005-12-06T01:25:13Z this is me procrastinating studying for history...i am getting antsy, restless, sleepy and wanting icecream...<br /><br />12 hours until i am done for a month.......and 3 days! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:56396 2005-12-05T05:46:44Z 2005-12-05T05:46:44Z livejournal is looking festive...i see frank has traded his christmas lights for a nice suit, and a jacket with a tail...what class that frank has...what class...<br /><br />today was a fantastic day...i started by making my gnocchi, it was when i left the potatoes unattended to tend to a poo, that they over cooked....and so i tried to make them happen anyways, but they just didnt turn out as famously as they should have..lesson learned: never poo when the potatoes are almost cooked...<br /><br />some of the girls and i had a fantastic dinner, it was HUGE and sooo good...we watched a movie, laugh, cried had girl talk and just enjoyed ourselves..it was soo awesome to finally chill together without worrying about projects and whatnot...it was especially good because some of them are leaving on exchange for second term, which is making me feel reallly sad :(<br /><br />this evening, i am definitely not feeling good, and all i really want is someone to hug me, and make me feel better, because i am really beside myself...my best friend definitely did that...he was here for the dave matthews concert..and he stopped here on his way to the bus station and gave me the best hug ever, and really made me smile...i still feel like poop...but i needed it so badly...and i love him always and when i see him i miss him more &lt;3, thanks iain.<br /><br />and now i go to bed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:56169 2005-12-03T23:19:56Z 2005-12-03T23:19:56Z no music...just LOST i heart friends..<br />i have seriously spent the majority of my day watching LOST...i heart season one.<br />last night was FANTASTIC and i am looking forward to a chillin night watching the game, and going skating..<br />YA SKATING...<br /><br />;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:56038 2005-12-01T23:29:00Z 2005-12-01T23:29:00Z Christmas is All Around- Billy Mack random thoughts of December 01, 2005<br /><br />-my conditioner always runs out faster than my shampoo, significantly faster<br />-the brightest "walk" light i saw today was on the northwest corner of Bay and Richmond- BLINDING<br />-i just ran out of toothpaste- i have squeezed as much paste as i could out of it...<br />-my big toe is last to have nailpolish wear off<br />-desperate need of a haircut, it's getting waaaay to tangled<br />-will the people across the street ever take their patio furniture on the roof inside?<br />-why are the simplest situations so complicated<br />-i think its funny that the construction man on top of the roof at church and shuter waved to me...( i even looked around and did the whole point at me and mouth the question- "me?", to see if he was directing the nice hello to me...which he was)...so i waved back<br />-there are people washing windows..i hope i dont forget and stand naked in the middle of my place<br />-i saw a friend walk by the window of s'bucks when i was sitting inside, i wanted to knock on the window, but figured they wouldnt have heard me....the door was beside me, it would have made more sense to open the door, grab their attention and invite them in...<br />-i dont like santas little castle dealie at the mall, its sooo not santa-style..ugh<br />-i forget what i was just going to say<br />-i felt a deep sadness when it was brought to my attention that Metro was not taking place in TO this march, and then a sigh of relief when i was told that after a friend was on the phone with tenpack dist. they would have metro jam afterall<br />-i think its awesome that amir ( the front desk guy ) says my name every time he sees me, i guess it shows he pays attn...then i feel like an ass for missing the celebration of his new baby Zara...horible.<br />-good feelings are surrounding me<br />-boys are fun<br />-decorating my apartment with homemade paper decorations might be the extent of christmas decor...i am broke<br />-money SHOULD grow on trees and/or in a patch<br />-i missed full house and growing pains this evening<br />-i hope my dad calls<br />-excited for the OC<br />-i want sj to come over and not be at work<br />-theatres in Canada should have a flat rate you pay/per month for unlimited movies...i would pay it. but it has to be like 25 bucks. or 5. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:55697 2005-11-30T03:14:51Z 2005-11-30T03:14:51Z firstly...i REALLY miss my "sarah" mug...it has to be one of my favourite mugs in the whole world, and it is sitting nicely in my moms cupboard and she is enjoying it as she drinks her teas...GEEZ...<br /><br />to continue...<br /><br />i am in a really really HAPPY mood tonight..i had a good day...and i feel relieved that i have just a page of my essay to write and i dont have anything left to do until my exam next tuesday..i feel sooo happy about it..<br />i also feel really good cause i was invited to dads for christmas dinner...i didnt get to spend the last two christmas' with him, and i am really excited and happy that this year i get too!! annnnnd...daddy also told me he would be here on thursday and friday with work..so HOPEFULLY we will get some time to chill together..cause i miss him terribly.. :)<br /><br />thats all. i hope everyone has a happy day :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:55435 2005-11-24T06:37:17Z 2005-11-24T06:37:17Z ...it's a constant battle urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:55053 2005-11-17T17:41:52Z 2005-11-17T17:41:52Z While you are running around the RCC working on your LIVE DRIVE..i am sitting in EFP...handing you equipment hessitantly, because what you call one thing...i call another...nonetheless...good luck with your live drives..i get to have the same hellish experience tomorrow. :)<br /><br />You are<br />[ ] short, under 5'2<br />[x] 5'2 -5'6"<br />[ ] 5'7" - 6'0<br />[ ] tall 6'2 and up<br /><br />NATURALLY<br />[ ] blonde<br />[ ] redhead<br />[x] brunette<br />[ ] dirty blonde/brownish<br />[ ] dark brown<br />[ ] black<br /><br />[ ] blue-eyed<br />[ ]brown-eyed<br />[x] green-eyed<br />[ ] if you look closely tho, 1's green and ones brown] hazel eyed<br />[ ] gold/gray-eyed<br />[ ] silver/gray- eyed<br />[ ] blue/green-eyed<br />[ ] blue/gray-eyed<br />[ ] they change colors<br /><br />[ ] glasses<br />[ ] contacts<br />[ ] neither<br /><br />[ ] short hair<br />[ ] medium<br />[x] long hair<br /><br />Your favorite color(s) are?<br />[ ] red<br />[ ] khaki<br />[ ] pink<br />[ ] hot pink<br />[ ] yellow<br />[ ] black<br />[ ] green<br />[ ] lime green<br />[x] blue<br />[ ] white<br />[ ] turquoise<br />[ ] silver<br />[ ] purple<br />[x] brown<br />[ ] orange<br />[ ] grey<br />[ ] maroon<br />[ ] gold<br />[ ] clear<br /><br />Some things you've done?<br />[x] ice skating<br />[x] hiking<br />[x] kayaking<br />[ ] rafting<br />[ ] water skiing<br />[x] camping<br />[x] horseback riding<br />[ ] surfing and skim<br />[x] snowboarding<br />[x] skiing<br />[ ] skateboarding<br />[ ] lacrosse<br />[x] street hockey<br />[x] gymnastics<br />[ ] martial arts<br />[x] bmx<br />[ ] baton twirling, flag spinning, and rifle tossing<br /><br />Your personality is sometimes...<br />[x] talkative<br />[x] shy<br />[x] funny<br />[x] serious<br />[x] laid back<br />[x] bitchy/asshole-ish<br />[ ] strict<br />[x] hyper<br />[x] weird<br />[ ] ditzy<br />[x] sarcastic<br />[ ] slow<br /><br />you can't stand listening to?<br />[ ] pop<br />[x] country<br />[ ] christian<br />[ ] classical<br />[x] techno<br />[ ] oldies<br />[ ] opera<br />[ ] reggae<br />[ ] emo<br />[ ] 80's<br />[ ] disco<br />[ ] rap<br /><br />The pets you have had?<br />[x] cat<br />[x] dog<br />[ ] lizard<br />[ ] rat<br />[ ] ferret<br />[x] bunny<br />[x] fish<br />[ ] duck<br />[ ] horse<br />[x] bird<br />[ ] frog<br />[ ] hermit crab<br />[ ] prarie dog<br />[ ] none<br />[ ] turtle<br />[x] hamster<br />[ ] snake<br />[x] gerbil<br />[x] guinea pig<br />[ ] pig<br />[ ] goat<br />[ ] chinchilla<br />[ ] tarantula<br />[ ] geese<br /><br />Clothing Brands you like?<br />[ ] Delia's<br />[x] American Eagle<br />[x] Hollister<br />[ ] The Buckle<br />[x] Abercrombie & Fitch<br />[ ]Target<br />[ ] Walmart<br />[ ] Wet Seal<br />[ ] O'neil<br />[ ] PacSun<br />[x] Aeropostale<br />[ ] Dickies<br />[x] Quicksilver/ Roxy<br />[ ] Anchor Blue<br />[x] Guess<br />[ ] Lucky<br />[ ] Champs<br />[x] Salvation army/goodwill/value village<br />[ ] old navy<br />[ ] only name brand<br />[ ] Don't care<br /><br />Shoe Brands?<br />[ ] Nike<br />[x] Adidas<br />[ ] Reebok<br />[x] Etnies<br />[ ] Converse<br />[ ] K Swiss<br />[x] Steve Madden<br />[ ] Vans<br />[x] If i like something ill buy it no matter what brand<br />[ ] New Balance<br />[ ] LEI<br />[x] Payless<br />[ ] Dr. Martin's<br />[ ] Slippers<br />[x] Uggs<br />[ ] DVS<br />[ ] Lugz<br /><br />States I have been to.<br /><br />[ ] Alabama<br />[ ] Alaska<br />[ ] Arizona<br />[ ] Arkansas<br />[ ] California<br />[ ] Colorado<br />[ ] Connecticut<br />[ ] Delaware<br />[x] Florida<br />[ ] Georgia<br />[ ] Hawaii<br />[ ] Idaho<br />[ ] Illinois<br />[ ] Indiana<br />[ ] Iowa<br />[ ] Kansas<br />[ ] Kentucky<br />[ ] Louisiana<br />[ ] Maine<br />[ ] Maryland<br />[ ] Massachusetts<br />[ ] Michigan<br />[ ] Minnesota<br />[ ] Mississippi<br />[ ] Missouri<br />[ ] Montana<br />[ ] Nebraska<br />[ ] Nevada<br />[ ] New Hampshire<br />[x] New Jersey<br />[ ] New Mexico<br />[x] New York<br />[x] North Carolina<br />[ ] North Dakota<br />[x] Ohio<br />[ ] Oklahoma<br />[ ] Oregon<br />[x] Pennsylvania<br />[ ] Rhode Island<br />[x] South Carolina<br />[ ] South Dakota<br />[x] Tennessee<br />[ ] Texas<br />[ ] Utah<br />[ ] Vermont<br />[x] Virginia<br />[ ] Washington<br />[ ] Wahington D.C.<br />[x] West Virginia<br />[ ] Wisconsin<br />[ ] Wyoming<br /><br />your confessions:<br />[ ] im afraid of the quiet<br />[x] I am really ticklish<br />[ ] I'm afraid of the dark sometimes<br />[ ] I've collected comic books<br />[x] I shut others out when I'm sad<br />[x] I open up to others easily<br />[ ] I read the news<br />[ ] I watch the news<br />[x] I love Disney movies<br />[ ] I am a sucker for eyes<br />[ ] I don't kill bugs<br />[ ] I have/had "x"s in my screen name<br />[x] I bake well<br />[x] I have worn pajamas to class<br />[ ] I love Martha Stewart<br />[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS<br />[x] I am self-conscious<br />[x] I love to laugh.<br />[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis<br />[ ] I have tried a cigarette<br />[x] I have tried alcohol [not just a sip]<br />[ ] I can't swallow pills<br />[ ] I bite my nails<br />[ ] I play computer games when I'm bored<br />[ ] Gotten lost in the city<br />[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas<br />[x] Made out in an elevator<br />[ ] Been skydiving<br />[ ] Been bungee jumping<br />[x] Bitten someone<br />[ ] Dressed up like a GUY/girl<br />[ ] egged a house/car<br />[ ] crashed into a car<br />[ ] Been fired<br /><br />Have you ever...<br />[x] stolen a sign<br />[x] danced in the rain<br />[x] Seen a shooting star<br />[ ] proposed to anyone<br />[x] gotten stitches<br />[x] Eaten Sushi<br />[x] Gotten the chicken pox<br />[x] Ridden in a taxi<br />[ ] been on a cruise ship<br />[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day<br />[x] Been on a Plane<br />[x] had surgery<br />[x] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater<br />[x] been on stage<br />[ ] Leakd somewhere other than a toilet<br />[x] Gotten a black eye<br />[x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie<br />[ ] watched an entire baseball game on tv<br /><br />Do you like...<br />[x] old movies<br />[x] musicals<br />[x] blasting music in your car<br />[x] foreign foods<br />[ ] anime<br />[x] christmas time<br />[ ] donuts<br />[x]animals<br />[ ]coffee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:54953 2005-11-17T04:11:45Z 2005-11-17T04:11:45Z alright..so i am feeling a little stressed...its not a good feeling..and it's certainly not going anywhere fast...<br />i am discouraged like carazie at this moment..and i am doubting myself and my talents as far as RTA goes..maybe i should have gone into theatre from the start...maybe i am just hitting exhaustion and letting the fatigue get to me...all i know is that i was feeling fantastic..and i was feeling great....but tonight i feel like i have lost my optimism, drive and motivation...<br />i am also stressed for money..but then again..who isnt..i am thinking that for the next while i wont be going anywhere..if i do..i cant spend anything..its just not feesable.. :S<br />and i can't just blame stress on school or the lack of money....some of it is partly my own demands i put on myself and make it hard sometimes to achieve..<br />i am beside myself and i am easily brought down....if it werent for my friends i think i would have lost it by now..they definitely make me smile and have the greatest advice...they keep me grounded too..<br /><br />..this ball of stress is gonna be kicked down the street in a minute...just venting tonight made me feel a bit better...i just HATE being overwhelmed.. :S urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:54748 2005-11-08T05:49:30Z 2005-11-08T05:49:30Z sounds of the city life.<br />embrace it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:54478 2005-10-29T16:07:44Z 2005-10-29T16:08:17Z i have just recently jumped back into the partying groove after my hiatus.....yes i know what you are all thinking... "wow-this girl must be real insightful"...<br />honestly tho..the last two weekends have been amazingly fun...and it's not just the drinks..HONESTLY...it's the fact that a lot of people are out having a kick ass time..<br />last weekend, Keith came for an awesome visit..which consisted of dancing at the phoenix, and a dance party in the street outside dan and brents house...hilarious...<br />this weekend began on thursday..i havent been out on a thursday in FOREVER..(hence the hiatus)...we hit up R'n'R in our CRAYON costumes...yes that's right..we are CRAYONS alllll weekend...hehe..it was chills-a good handful of RTA kids made it out and made my day..<br />Last night, we were out again..i went over to brent and dans, and predrank with the two and brents friends from home..we then made our way to MINK...VIP booth-with lots to drink...i had a killer night....i got home...yes, shmammered...very much i would say...and popped a michelina in the microwave...THE ALARM in my WHOOOOOLE building starts going off...so being trashed outta my mind leaves me to think "ah fuck did i just set the alarm off...so i throw the michelina in the sink and turn the tap on soaking it....i throw my hoodie on cause the beeping wont stop and clearly take the elevator down (pretty sure in a fire alarm you are supposed to take the stairs)....the consierge tells me "no worries its the building next door"....i was so confused...i think walked up 7 flights of stairs...walked into my place, turned on some OC and passed out on the couch..<br />CAN'T WAIT FOR TONIGHT!<br />hehehehehehehehehehehehe.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:54104 2005-10-23T21:43:12Z 2005-10-23T21:43:12Z What's your name? : Sarah Marie Anne Miele<br />Birthplace : St. Kitt's, Ontario Canada<br />Age : 20<br />Age you act :i would say i act my age...depending on the day of course....<br />Current location : my chillin' pad<br />Eye color :gorgeous green eyes smiling.<br />Hair color : brown and blonde...kinda like marble cake.<br />Right, lefty or ambidextrous? : right<br />Zodiac sign? : scorpio...<br />Height? : 5'5 <br />Your heritage/nationality : half italian...half the rest of the world..<br />Loved someone so much it made you cry? ..it's been known to happen..<br />Been in a car accident? yes but the other guy hit us<br />Favorite TV show? i have quite the list right now..THE OC...LOST..prison break..desperate housewives..WOO HOO the discovery of TV!<br />Favorite day of the week? i like mondays..the day makes me feel like its a fresh start to a new week...even though sunday is the first day of the week..i dont do anything on that day...<br />Favorite sport to watch? most live sports..HOCKEY, lacrosse, baseball<br />Favorite drink? water..choco milk..LATTES and beer<br />Favorite ice cream flavor? cookies 'n' cream and/or Oreo<br />Your fears : worms..<br />Your perfect room :rooms that make me happy...probably my bedroom cause it is full of pillows and my soft bed with blankies!<br />Your first thought when you wake up : i gotta pee<br />Your greatest accomplishment : finding confidence <br />Something you want to do : direct a feature film...and/or have a talk show<br />Pepsi or Coke : neither..its called water..<br />McDonald's or Burger King : mcdonalds breakie when i am absolutely craving it...which is rare<br />Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :christina DUH..<br />Chocolate or vanilla : a little of both...vanilla icecream and lattes..CHOCOLATE M&Ms...i'm a girl...you can win my heart with a balance of both<br />Adidas or Nike : adidas<br />Burgers or hot dogs : if its made with chicken i will eat it.<br />Egypt or France : umm...no preference..however i would like to travel to both some day<br />Rock or rap : rock and rap?<br />Smoke : nope...never tried it..dont intend to..<br />Cuss : once in a while...not too often<br />Sing well : somewhat<br />Sing in the shower : i used to..i gotta start doing that more..it makes me happy<br />Talk to yourself --haha...too much<br />Believe in yourself : yup<br />Like taking these longass surveys? :when i have to do an essay...i would rather do this<br />Play an instrument : oh no..not that talented..wish i could tho<br />Want to go to college? : i am in university?<br />Want to get married? : i often thought i wouldnt like to...but maybe one day..if the right boy comes along.<br />Want to have children? :somedays yes..somedays no...but most likely 4 will do<br />Think you're a health freak? : most days...just obsessed really<br />Get along with your parents : YES... &lt;3 mom and dad<br />Get along with your siblings? : all 5 of 'em<br />Think you're popular : only on myspace<br />-- In the past month have you..[x]<br />Gone out of state : oh i dont live in a state.<br />Drank alchohol : friday night shinnanigans...i drank too much<br />Smoke : i dont like repeating myself<br />Get high : yup<br />Done any drugs : am i the only one who finds this redundant?<br />Eaten an entire box of oreos : nope<br />Been on stage : yurp<br />Gone skinny dipping : not in the past month<br />Been dumped :no i've been single for quite a while *sigh*<br />Dyed your hair : ugh..no..but i want to<br />Stolen anything : nah<br />-- Your friends! =D ----i dont like this part cause everyone comes to mind..<br />Craziest :<br />Loudest :<br />Kindest : <br />Best personality : <br />Most ghetto : <br />Pain in the ass : oh thats me..<br />Funniest : <br />Person you've known the longest : avery jenne<br />Do you have a crush on someone? actually...no i dont..<br />Do you have a secret crush as well? feel free to WOO me...i am crush free!<br />Last time you fought with your parents : a long time ago..and i never want to again<br />Last time you wished upon a star : too long ago..<br />Played Truth or Dare : who knows..<br />Spent quality time alone : this morning i had a bath..today i have sat around and done nothing..AMAZING. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:53809 2005-10-09T06:32:08Z 2005-10-09T06:32:08Z you know what..<br />i am home.<br />i am making pumpkin pies with grandma..just like every thanksgiving weekend..<br />i am NOT missing dinner with my dad this year..<br />i AM going to have dinner with him tomorrow..<br />i have seen some close friends..and had amazing chill time with them :)<br />i had an apple given to me by a boy scout..and it tasted amazing..<br />i LOVE that today really felt like fall..a hoodie and a latte and the smell of cool crisp air...IMPRESSED.<br />i am spending time with mom.<br />i feel refreshed..<br />bring on the pumpkin patch. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:53510 2005-10-03T02:55:36Z 2005-10-03T02:55:36Z norah jones-those sweet words i love that book.<br />i bought it this summer whilst on an outing with my good friend keith...we enjoyed our lattes and drove aimlessly while i read aloud. that same night we enjoyed his seven dollars worth of chocolate covered almonds and my seven dollars worth of glorious m&ms and watched a movie...and then suffered massive tummy aches.<br />that was a good night..<br /><br />....<br />surprise surprise...like i said he would..frye didnt show...disappointed in him...but not mad...then again i made other plans and enjoyed myself nonetheless...<br />....<br />my mom came to visit with leanne and grandma...we chilled here...had some lunch at frans and then came back here for a bit..it was sooooo good to see them..and amazing that they brought along with them some yummy food for me...including choco milk and nutella..WOW...<br />on their drive home however they didnt have much luck with the car...because it caught on fire...everyone is ok..but it was a little disheartening for my mom to see her car burn to the ground...i feel awful and wish i could do something for her...but the main thing is that no one was hurt...i am happy to be getting home to see them this weekend..<br />....<br />i am feeling overwhelmed...i like that i am busy...but i dont like when i hear myself say to friends "i'm too busy to do anything"...because that phrase is getting old quick..and i gotta do something about it...that just means i better hurry up and find a solution to my busy-ness..<br />....<br />i am really not feeling good today..i have been beside myself..and frustrated...i am gonna crawl back into bed...so i am well rested for a jam packed day tomorrow....wednesday afternoon is highly anticipated..because it means for a few hours i can escape to spend some time with iain and enjoy the musical talents of john mayer..and probably a dozen hugs from iain ;)...so excited.<br /><br />*night.<br />ps-keith..this post's for you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:53459 2005-09-21T04:32:33Z 2005-09-21T04:32:33Z jem-falling for you could this be...<br />i was really bummed out after learning that i was going to be doing a shoot with my group for one of our projects on the weekend i was going to go home..<br />:(<br />BUT...to my surprise..jonfrye said he would come up and visit that weekend..weather permitting..yes i am excited...THRILLED...but i dont want to count on it..<br />still...i am happy..cause it means two things.. 1) i get to see jonfrye...and 2)i get my shoes..thats right...MY SHOES!...most important of the two i think..<br />thats all i got..<br />woot<br />:)<br />Sar urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:53024 2005-09-19T22:15:44Z 2005-09-19T22:15:44Z john mayer..somethings missing ...i guess its been a while..huh?<br />i am pretty cheery these days...i would have to say i am just in a good place right now..<br />i LOVE being back in the city...and yes..its true no matter where i am..i am going to miss people...right now i am missing my sisters hardcore..but i shall see them soon enough and it will be wonderful...<br />i am really enjoying my place..its nice...its quiet..and trust me it feels like it is FULL of happiness and smiles because my friends are here so often...i heart gal pals. :)<br />thank you ladies<br /><br />i had an awesome weekend...iain was here and i couldnt have been happier...and even though we are insane i still love being just us...spending quality chill time, simply being together..<br />its true though...i kinda had to run when he got on the bus back to london...so many feelings about everything...the fear of it all resurfacing..and maybe it already has...i never know..and i dont think i will ever know..its just one of those things...and trust me...friday was perfect ;)..can't wait for john mayer <br /><br />i really dont know what else to say..other than i am a happy gal these days :).. life is too good.<br /><br />------ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:52826 2005-08-19T01:50:15Z 2005-08-19T01:50:15Z crickets chirping outside my window.. i am thinking that once i am back in TO..and into classes and surrounded by my best gal pals...and of course all my friends...this lonely feeling will fade...<br /><br />..yes, i'd like to have the real fruit with a side order of chocolate... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:52708 2005-08-16T03:24:55Z 2005-08-16T03:24:55Z firstly...i love my sisters...they are seriously, without a doubt my three best friends..<br /><br />secondly...the wedding was soooo much fun..although the bride was an hour late..everything was beautiful...especially the chocolate fountain of yumminess and the open bar...<br /><br />thirdly...i went out with my sister tonight..we went in a haunted house..jennie is quite the entertainment..blood-curdling screams the WHOLE time...she amazes me..ANNNND..this was the first time in my 20 years of living in niagara EVER attending the haunted houses on clifton hill...we saw a chinese man with a massage chair on the sidewalk-weiiiird...then we ran into paul..and i rode his bike through a crowd of tourists-hit two of them in the back of the legs..sorry.. and found frye..krupa and a bunch of the other riders and chilled with them for a bit..then got fries and fudge...and came home...i know..quite the combination..isnt it?<br /><br />---------------------------------<br />i am purchasing a mattress tomorrah..that should be fun.. WOO HOO..and then i think i am going to pack a lil bit..who knows?!..i also know paul promised me free laps at the go karts in the falls..i am afraid of go-karts...<br /><br />4 days of work left!! YAYAYAYAYAYA! and daddy comes home on sunday!! YAYAYAYAYA!...<br /><br />thats all..<br />;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:52425 2005-08-13T13:55:21Z 2005-08-13T13:56:57Z my sister practicing for her audition [you make it so difficult when you look at me with the same eyes as before...proof that you still care...breaking my heart a little more each time...i'm just a hopeless romantic believing that love waits around every corner...even with you-and i shouldn't because we're just friends..i do feel better having finally spent some time with you...<br />i think the best part of our evening was the line "<u>{insert just about anything here, followed by}</u>, admit it"...and you never disagreed..<br />this is getting ridiculous...everytime i think i am over you....<b>UGH!</b>]<br /><br />yaaaa..a spa date with my sistahs...poker party at my house-yet none of us know how to play*yikes*...my cousins wedding is this weekedend! amazing!!open bar...trouble...gonna be a funnnnn weekend ;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:52036 2005-08-11T21:06:04Z 2005-08-11T21:06:04Z ever start writing an email confessing every feeling and rambling on about many thoughts and whatever is stuck in your heart and then once you finish it you delete the whole thing, log off and never end up sending it...?? cause i know i have...i guess i never send it because i feel better just writing it down and then realize there is no need to say anything...maybe thats wrong...maybe what i need to do is just be upfront and say what i need to say just to get it out there..even though it never gets me anywhere...i dunno...it's not important anyways... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carazie_s:51520 2005-07-30T04:12:03Z 2005-08-11T03:54:59Z And oh I know I promised<br />that I would try...<br />.....<br />But I, yes I, miss you<br />And it's killing inside<br />Oh well I, yes I, miss you<br />Want you by my side<br /><br />Walking, holding hands<br />Talking, making plans<br />Touching my heart my soul<br />-------------------------<br />..all it took was for a complete stranger to kiss me to realize...i miss you more than you could ever know...<br />fuck it...fuck it all...<br />and i thought that i was ok with all of this...<br /><br />*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*<br />on a lighter note...i love my bike...went for a cruise tonight with frye..and rachel came too...it was nice..we rode for about two hours...hit up some frosty's at wendys ahaha..and then just chilled....i feel like i am more confident with my jumping...if you want to call it that..i jumped a speed bump and got really good air..and this HUGE rush...it felt amazing..and i am feeling confident enough that i could learn more :)<br />this is just the beginning of the weekend of awesomeness